some yesterday when i was you
knots in my mind couldnt undo
find someone it feels like death to miss
remember a kiss is never just a kiss
seek not glory love is your story
to be needed is fine to be wanted divine
i pray,feel the beauty that i see
some tomorrow when you are me

oh to take your hand
bring you here now
tell bedtime stories
of a man i knew before
who you might have loved
before the curtains closed
he made a bed
from unsent love letters
slept with your words
too scared to send them
holding them in his heart
oh to take your hand

The seeds of prose only shared
with the most fragrant of flowers
then they can blossom and bloom
for the world

In the jewellery box of your heart
where you keep the moon & stars
might they reside there

When i am cursed
with silent loneliness
might you kiss me awake
with words

only the narcissistically deranged
take a loveable soul,need it changed
cut truth from skin inject it with lies
extinguish the fireworks in your eyes
falcons shackled feet
ravens wing clipped so neat
i speak regarding others,also me
songbirds caged will never
sing as well as free

my dreams of desire to be adored
pickpocketed feeling oh so whored
character magpie,socially stalking
all equates to theft
imprison then my personality
that which remains left
shouldve locked away my thoughts
swallowed the key
was on top of the world
now the world’s on top of me

Thank you for my birthday messages you have no idea how much joy i feel from your friendships
私は特に私の日本人の友人に感謝しなければなりません、私の最初の誕生日のメッセージはあなたがロンドンより進んでいるのでいつも日本の私の友人からです。皆さんはとても親切で素晴らしいです
LOVEX

Good morning,welcome to therapy
contort my thoughts,contrive to mould me
Fractious mind fractured heart
possibilities personalities tear apart
Proclivities toward alone
Deep cuts closer to bone
No belief in death as far as I could see
Tried to find if death herself believed in me

Hurt hidden away with a secret first aid kit Camouflaged ‘neath plasters where razors bit
Serene Evenings I silently counted blessings
Spent mornings kissing blood-specked dressings Goodbye xxx was 3 kisses at the end of a letter
Wish I coulda been someonestronger,someone better

awaken empty in your arms
feathers weight between breast
feeling of heat in cold and dark
bliss's warm tattoo on your chest
eyes can’t adjust to sight
corners shadow dawns first flight
sense of reality you believe true
guardian angel of my thoughts
smiling beloved down upon you

Words wrote cheques
I wasn't able to keep
To wrap you in my heart
& my head till I sleep
Thought I could leave
& never have to think
Drink so I can escape
the fact I need to drink
Cry myself to sleep
wont hear me moan
Broke my heart when you said Id be lonely
yet never be alone

Nightmares wherein my soul would seep
Woke to find myself cut in my sleep
Colours melting into each other again
Clouded belief dissolved in rain
Soul was hollow heart still bereft
Self empty inside nothing else left
Might you return,ensure a drought
Lay down my nature,iron me out

Broke your rules
to keep me safe
knowing knowledge
is the enemy of faith

People take in sunrises
sunsets as they would air
Pass flowers without inhaling
imbibe words without thinking

When i stopped hearing angels
You Never stopped praying for me

They will never dream as we do

Circle of sorrows
Germane to our own
conciousness
The hollow demons
Oh empty shells
Emotional torpitude
my sorbet thoughts
This amber asylum
serpentine perception

You left a trail of words
Like fairytale breadcrumbs
to lead me from alone

Saved just in time
You were my last wish

Those bloated Narcissi
our past chaperones
Obliged by obsequious
now circle our minds drain
No crippled cute courtesan
Resplendently rise above
some cached grotesque

Freedom began in dreams
our diffidence shedding
Now dawn kisses thy colour
soaking in our elegance
Hope was earnt

The almost religious counterfeit love I crave
Shall haunt & follow me from cradle to grave
She kissed me first ‘neath a liar’s moon
Should dawn not come t'would be too soon
Love crept in at daybreak it never went away
Alas the Frost on the ground whispered
'Nothing gold can stay'

Dark water from my self medication
took my heart and mind for a vacation
fear is real even if it's something I can't see
trick my anxiety if I hide what it does to me
Departed the glamorous
sadness of a leaving tide
Heartbreakingly beautiful
Like accident flowers by the roadside

Thought I was on dry land til eggshells began to crack
That I was suffering fools, til wisdom whispered back
From the mouths of babes comfort had flown
As I fell asleep hearing Jesus on the phone

Was given a glimpse and allowed to see
A time without you, my life without me

Washed myself in a thousand bodies too
To cleanse myself from the scent of you
Heard howls quadraphonic then looked around
Viced my brain in my hands as i fell to the ground
Daydreams coagulated,melded a life i couldn't see
Realized the screaming i heard was coming from me

They singed my soul
Turned out the light
Perfunctory platitudes
Over-sung gratitude

Some fools errand, love

Shadows salt my open wounds
Mirages medicate me
The cruelty of clocks
Shallow empathy
Saccharine bonhomie

But then you,always you
With a smile in your pocket for me

not my reflection
an older me
spring will aid,heal
these inadequate seasons

words whisper solace
quell the thoughts
as once you did

the hummingbirds bliss
she lingers less at night

happiness is all you need
no comfort watching karma bleed

though alone is a difficult blessing