When I look back at all of the things that I have gone through, I sit and question how the hell I am still alive. I sit and question why the fuck I still get up every morning and fight. Im tired man. Mentally and emotionally. I don’t wanna do it anymore

“Actions speak louder than words”

Yeah, my actions are no where near my words 🤦🏻‍♂️🤦🏻‍♂️ I need to grow up and get my life in order 😒 doing some childish shit rn in life 🤦🏻‍♂️

Its absolutely insane to me that I have known Matt | Apex for this long. Almost 4.5 years. If im not mistaken, he is the person I have known the longest in the gaming space and I couldn’t ask for a more of a better homie 🫡💙

I see all these emails from tiktok “so and so has sent you messages”… I open tiktok to no messages….. I hit my profile…. I’VE BEEN ON MY SECOND ACCOUNT FOR 2 WEEKS AND HAVENT NOTICED!!!! 🤦🏻‍♂️🤦🏻‍♂️🤦🏻‍♂️

Friday bout to be nice for me. Got a round of golf with my brother and then going out for wings with my irl homies.

First day back at work, should have called in for the rest of the week 😒😒

Can’t wait to get my bearings back (maybe next week) cause im actually thinking about planning to get good at golf (workouts, practice, playing on course) and recording it. Maybe thinking about even reviewing practices on stream? 🤷🏻‍♂️ gonna do some planning this week

LETS GOOOOO!! I better see y’all there partying 🥳😤

This may be fun……. Just unblocked my entire blocked list 😂😂😂

Idk how the fuck that stupidity has a platform 🤦🏻‍♂️🤦🏻‍♂️ but if it works for him 🤷🏻‍♂️🤷🏻‍♂️ call me a hater all you want

MS Paint Doodle of the stream: Tandemaus

LF1-2 people who would like to build a 65-80 muscle car 😭 I don’t know why I wanna do this so badly

I don’t know why, but it really annoys me that I don’t really feel sad that my cousin has passed. I spent a lot of time with him when he was here, and now that he is gone I feel more of a relief that he doesn’t have to fight anymore. Its just weird to me 😕

Yup 🙂

I am not ready for today ☹️😔

It’s honestly bittersweet to be home. On one hand I wanna be in the sun and warmth but on the other hand im so happy to be back in MY bed. Now its time to take it day by day and get back to reality.

Just touched down in depression 😭😭😭 I mean home. I WANNA GO BACK!!!!! 😭😭😭

👀👀 ill check the replies when I get home

Travel day home today 😔😔 even tho im gonna miss it, im ready to go home

This thread is pathetic 🤦🏻‍♂️🤦🏻‍♂️🤦🏻‍♂️😒